X

Loosen that Noose everything’s too tight around here
Driven by the anxiety to do well and succeed to fulfill the Nuclear dream

And why do parents always push
Because when push comes to shove kids will still do what they want to do
Generation X is changing how we live our life
And for those who identify X with ecstasy
Happiness has been given a new meaning

Individuality has become the new conformity
And no one wants to grow up like you did
Because Life is not a rush to the finish line
And the money in your bank account doesn’t define the person you are and the achievements that come with it

I don’t want the suit and the ironed shirt
The 4 bedroom suburban life and a fancy car to prove that I worked harder than you for this
Because I know the meaning of growing up grateful
To not know if you will ever come home and to deal with it one day at a time every day of my life

And I used to think I wanted to have it all to show you that you had done well
I know now that its not about what you own its about who you are
And if im a free thinking individual who does what I want to do because it makes me happy
If I keep my morals close to my heart and a positive attitude for the cherry on top
Than I know that the anxiety has been lifted from my shoulders

Because in generation X its 2007 and my religion political beliefs and education shouldn’t define whether im better than you but it should define the person i've become by realizing that money doesn’t reign all but the heart that you carry does.

If you know me well its common knowledge that the Descendents has been one of my favourite bands since I was young. The first song I heard by them was a song called good good things, back in grade seven and to this day I still love it.

Here are the lyrics!

I know a place up in the airIt's not very far, I've been there beforeI know a place, cool and warmcooling my blood, warming my heart

So come on down and walk with me, and tell me I'm your manI only want to know a couple of things about youWhere were you when I was in so much trouble with myselfAnd do you still believe in me like I believe

I've been thinking good good things about you cool and warm, good good things about youIf you've been thinking good good things about me So cool and warm when you put your arms around meAll on my own, I know where to go Living the lie, in your eyesI know a place, cool and warm Cooling my blood, warming my soul

So come on down and walk with me, and tell me I'm your manLet's see if I can get it right with you this time aroundI'm not afraid of losing you my little girlBut do you still believe in me like I believe

This summer I realized that i've destructed myself a lot over the past year in different ways many of them unintentional others occured due to a lack of motivation. I used to be very posi as a lot of kids in the hardcore community may know, but I find that being home always helps to straighten out what I've been lacking in my life.

Life is funny in the sense that sometimes you think you are doing something good for yourself or even others when you're really not at all. I'm not trying to be selfish but lately I've been concentrating on myself, and at the end of the day I feel accomplished even if its doing something I enjoy like playing nintendo with one of my best friends.


"But do you still beleive in me like I believe"

Jimmy Eat World makes me feel 14 again.

I think people forget how much this band rules.


Clarity

I'll take your words as if you were talking to me.Say what I know you'll say and say it through your teeth.With pride keep every failure in.And with pride hold on to the sinking.Now in the deep and down your heart moves.Now in the deep and down, I don't know how but I know I want out.Wait for something better.Will I know when it can be us?Maybe that doesn't mean us.Wait for something better?I shouldn't, it's not enough.Pull one excuse from another.Just one excuse from another.This time it means us. stop.

whoopydoo

Recently I had a second knee surgery as a result of a soccer injury from a few years back. After being told that I would have to stay in bed for six weeks I decided to start writing in my blog again, so consider this post the first of many. This week has being pretty crazy with a passing in my immediate family, a major surgery and being allergic to the anesthetic that went along with it. But through all the bad a lot of good has come from it, my family is closer than ever and my friends who are always supportive of me have been there for me through it all. I can count five people who really matter to me in Ottawa and pretty much give me a reason to stay in this city during the summer months. Throughout the past few years naturally my group of friends has gotten smaller four of which I have known since i was young, and one who I have been close with since I was 17. I plan on leaving Ottawa for good once I finish my degree, I have been California dreaming for a while now, and think it will be the best place for me to be really happy. At the end of the day where ever I am whether it be at school or home in Ottawa I want these five people to know that I'm thinking of them even if we haven't spoken in a few days or a month.